I don't know where to begin. I can't make this long, but I realized not long ago how I need to take control of things. I started to and it began to unfold. What you ask? My personality, my spirit, my fucking self for once.
I looked in the mirror and told myself I earned everything. I did everything. I do thank my friends, but without motivation and the will to want to change, I would be a fat fuck still. I would be worse then that actually.
I stopped praying 5 days ago, because I have been so angry. Many people do not know I pray for them. Gina, your nephew, Shane for a true love, my cousin to stop his drug problem, everyone I know and myself to find love. I feel I shouldn't be praying for love though. It's like I am trying to force something that I can attain naturally. Just by being with someone I have feelings for and being me.
Fuck everyone else that doesn't support what I have been doing. This is my life, as short as it may be, it's mine.
EDITED 11/23/2009 for clarification.
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So... you stopped praying? Fuck everyone else? You're not going to pray for them because it's your life?
ReplyDeleteThat came out wrong. I was just angry. I meant fuck everyone else that doesn't support me. The "haters" per say for what I have done for myself. I meant to separate my paragraphs. Not praying and fuck everyone else was suppose to be two separate thoughts. Sorry. Actually I can fix it and will do right now by just starting a new sentence/paragraph for it.
ReplyDeleteGotcha. :) Try not to focus on the haters. They're only haters because they're miserable on the inside and want to make you feel the same way.
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