Update

Things have been getting better for all aspects. I will start with school.

School is getting better. I am learning to become more focused when doing my school work and going over many problems in the book. It seems to be working as I took a Discrete Mathematics test and feel I did really well. I studied for over 5 hours and did all the practice problems. Calculus is till a bit harder than I anticipated. I am doing derivatives with respect y and x. I will do what I did for the Discrete math test and go over ALL the practice the problems. I will pass my next Calculus test with a 90 or above. I take my first Chemistry test on Tuesday. I am a bit nervous, but feel I can overcome it by sticking with what is working. I am going to read a little bit of it soon and study it hard tomorrow. I know some of it already, so I should do fine. My online class is just weird. I have been slacking and need to read seven chapters by 3/16/10 and take a mid term test. I think I will take next weekend and take of this in almost one sitting. It may take hours, but at least I will have it done and will pass.

The gym and my diet is still phenomenal. I weigh in at 199 pounds on my last official nurse weigh in. My chest got one and a quarter inches bigger in size and strength. My waist dropped another inch and my abs are coming in more. I am getting stronger and once the end of April hits I am going on what they call a cutting diet. I am going to get my body fat down to under 10% for the summer. This way when I hit the beach and have off during the summer I am going to enjoy it. I am going to do it for me.

Women have been just weird for me. I have been trying so hard that it has become a drain on me. I don't think I even want to be in one anymore. I want to stop trying so badly. I deleted my accounts off of both the online sites I was on. I even deleted them off the pat websites. This will help me focus more on things in my life rather than pressuring myself to meet someone. I think I am taking a huge step finally in the process of meeting someone. Next is to stop thinking about if I am going to meet someone when I go out and think more of I am just out to have a good time. This puts pressure off of me and lets me relax and just enjoy myself. I did go out on two dates. One this past weekend and the one before it. Two separate women which was an interesting thing. One ended up being cool, but just not for me. She is an atheist and I didn't think it would bother me, but it finally did. The other one is great so far. She is weary of men in general and I am just proving her wrong bit by bit which rocks for me. I will explain more when I get time. I got studying to do :P.