Hmm

I have noticed I have been bitching way too much lately. More of a WAHHH pity me then a glass is half full kind of guy. The person I use to be. I miss that guy. Mr. Happy-Go-Lucky with all his friends having a good time. I even do it at work sometimes. I have a good reason at work though. They are trying to change my position to a teller. I am not and will not be a 31 year old teller. I am sorry. Not that being a CSR is a big jump, but I was a teller for five years. I am good at it, but don't feel quite like an adult when I do. Nothing personal for the people who are older then me and enjoy it. It's just not for me anymore.

Back to this me bitching notion. I seem to be turning into a little whiny bitch. What the fuck happened to me? I feel like I am carrying the pity wagon wherever I go. I need to pep the fuck up. I got so much going for me now and I feel like I am not doing shit. I go to college and am doing pretty well so far. Math is getting a tad better, but it's not great. I work out, I mean a lot. I go to the gym everyday. I had a headache today and still worked out. I didn't even take any aspirin. My total intake of calories I think was only 1300. That's barely anything and I worked out. I have a job, not a great one, but it pays my bills and leaves me a bit to take of things. I am buying new clothes. Which reminds me, my clothes are already not fitting again. It's getting a bit expensive to keep losing weight. I think I may have slowed down a tad as I haven't lost anyt more weight, but my bodyfat percentage keeps trickling down which is good.

There I said some nice things about myself. How awesome am I? Well, ok, maybe that's stretching it a bit. I now need to find a group of friends that enjoy hanging out on the weekends. Maybe just an Applebee's fun for a drink and some wings. Going to a bar on Sunday to watch the game. I need to work on this. My biggest self defeat is my self-esteem. I need to kick this bitch into gear. I just want to lose a bit more weight in my lower abdomen. It's such a hard spot to lose weight in :P.

My long term goals are to finish school, get a real career, keep working out and ascertain my six pack I desire and get married. Short term goals are to start being outgoing AGAIN, work on my self image, buy new clothes, take some damn pictures of me outside and dressed up a bit, get back into playing some video games as it's a stress reliever for me, and go to the movies more. I also need to see my parents sometime soon. I haven't seen them in a while.

I promise to work on me.